Thursday, March 26, 2009

My Twilight Rant

Spoiler Warning: I will talk about the plot and ending to the books. If you haven't read them yet but plan to, don't read this if you don't want to know how they end.

So I finished reading the Twilight books about two months ago, and I've been thinking about them quite a bit since. As a teenage girl, I enjoyed them immensely, because of the romance and the perfect happily-ever-after. Really, I can't help but love them and want to read them over and over again. They're the perfect way to drown from reality, exactly my brand of heroin :P. However, as works of literature, I have to say that they were not at all worth reading. Now, I will proceed with my big long rant on all the reasons why these books were bad, and I wish I could just stop thinking about them, but alas! I am a very obsessive creature by nature, and can think of little else, once I am obsessed. Perhaps this will get it all out of my system and I can go back to living my life. These are sort of in order from least important to most infuriating, but not totally.

First of all, Stephenie Meyer is uneducated in sentence structure. I found it extremely frustrating to read her books when there were sentence fragments on every single page. I can understand that, because the books were written in a first-person perspective, the sentence fragments were added to make it seem more like a stream of consciousness, but they were used far too frequently! I really don't like it when an author uses poor grammar; it makes me respect them much less that I normally would. After all, good grammar, punctuation, spelling, and a decent vocabulary are the foundation to any kind of good literature, in my opinion, and the Twilight books' plentiful sentence fragments made it seem amateurish, to me.

Something else that bothered me about these books was that it didn't seem like Meyer had a real plan of what was going on. The books didn't really have any plot, individually or as a series. In the first book, it seemed like she realized, two thirds of the way through, that she needed to give it a climactic ending, which is why James, Victoria, and Laurent(!) came in. I noticed the same sort of thing happening in the fourth book. After Bella has become a vampire, Meyer realizes that she needs to end the book climatically (and wants it to be as long as her other books), which is where the big Volturi thing came from. The second and third books are better plot-wise, since you know about the "bad guys" from the beginning. The whole series did not feel very unified, to me. The books lacked a good, unifying plot.

One of things that really angered me, once I realized it, is how Stephenie Meyer is constantly comparing her writing to that of classic authors whose work is much superior to hers, such as Jane Austen, Shakespeare, and Emily Bronte. In the first book, one Sunday afternoon, Bella takes her volume of all Jane Austen's books out onto the lawn to read (which made me incredibly jealous because it isn't fair that she gets Edward and all of Jane Austen's books! I want the books!). She becomes upset when she finds that the boy in Sense and Sensibility is named Edward Ferras. She skips to Mansfield Park, only to find that this book is about a young man named Edmund Bertram, whose name is much too close to Edward. Frustrated that she can't get him off her mind, she takes a nap in the sunshine. By this, Meyer, intentionally or not, is saying that Edward Cullen is just as great as, if not better than, Ferras and Bertram, who in my opinion are far superior to him. In the second book, in the very first chapter, Edward and Bella watch Romeo and Juliet together on her couch on her birthday. Then, at the end of the book, Edward believes that Bella has committed suicide, which prompts him to go to Italy to commit suicide himself. Bella has not killed herself, although she did jump off a cliff for the fun of it. She and Alice have to run off to Italy and stop Edward from dying. Then in the third book, Bella is rereading Wuthering Heights for the billionth time, and she is mentally comparing her situation with Edward and Jacob to this book often. Now, I confess, I have never read Wuthering Heights, so I cannot accurately say how much of Eclipse came from it. All I can say, is that she was more obviously comparing herself to Emily Bronte in the third book than in the others; the book was quoted in Eclipse at least three times. I will say that she didn't compare the fourth book to anything, that I know of. It was pretty ridiculous, though, and I don't think anything has ever been written quite like it.

Another thing that annoyed me was that none of the characters in these books, except for Carlisle, had any goals or ambitions. None of them had any plan of what they were going to do with the rest of their lives, or any inclination to make one. I can understand the vampires not having any goals, since they move so much and just repeat school over and over, but Bella and Jake and their friends should have had some idea of what they wanted to do! Bella's only plan is to be with Edward forever, which is romantic but unrealistic. She doesn't plan to do anything productive in society, since she doesn't plan on ever being a mother or staying employed at Mrs. Newton's outdoor supply store. Jacob, also, doesn't really have any plans for his future. After he became a werewolf, that did become his job, but, after Vicky's army was destroyed, he didn't really have much work to do and could have had a job, but he didn't... He just moped about how Bella chose Edward over him. This sets a bad example for the young people who read these books, who ought to be learning responsibility and deciding what to do with the rest of their lives.

One of the things that really ticked me off about these books was the lack of character development in all of the characters. I suppose that the vampires have a legitimate excuse, since their characters can't change because they're vampires, according to Meyer. Most of the vampires had cool characters, anyway (by most, I mean all but Edward). It was Bella, and Jacob to a lesser extent, whose lack of character development really annoyed me (No, I don't count turning into a mythical creature as character development), since there really weren't any other main characters that weren't vampires. Both of them, aside from becoming mythical creatures, stay pretty much the same as they were in the beginning, except now they have found their true loves. Jake actually was starting to develop as a character, in the fourth book when he was hanging out with Leah, but then he had to go and meet Renesmee, and he was no longer heartbroken, and his character stopped developing, which made me sad. Meyer just isn't good at writing characters who develop through the books.

This really bothered me because Bella's character so desperately needed to be developed. As a person, she seemed smart enough, and she had good taste in literature, but she always let her heart decide. I'm not saying not to listen to your heart; I just think that listening and always following without considering how stupid it may be are two very different things. Always doing whatever you feel like doing is not smart. Sometimes, you can't have or shouldn't have what you want, because it's bad or unhealthy for you. As the song goes, you can't always get what you want. Once Bella meets Edward, it's like her ability to think rationally just flies out the window. I mean, she never once thinks, "Hey, maybe it's not such a good idea to go out with a guy who has admitted that he is a murderer, wants to kill me, has been sneaking in my window to watch me sleep at night, and isn't exactly human." I can understand to an extent how it would be hard to think rationally, since she just found out that mythical creatures exist in reality, and he's really dazzlingly pretty, but that doesn't change what is smart and what is just stupid.

Then there's the fact that she's absolutely and utterly dependent on having a man in her life. When Edward leaves her in the second book, she can't survive on her own at all; she just curls in on herself. Then she runs into Jacob's arms and stays there until she can be with Edward again. Now, I do think that it is important for women to be with men. In a perfect world, women would always have men out there taking care of them, but alas! this is not a perfect world; it is a fallen one. In this fallen world, women need to be able to be independent in case a time should come when the men in their lives abandon them. Bella did have a man in her life; his name was Charlie. With him there, she did not need to have Edward there taking care of her and providing for her. Bella had been perfectly fine without a boyfriend before Edward came along! A rational woman would have to get over it eventually and move on and keep on living, with or without him, and become independent, which would have caused great character development. Bella doesn't do that; oh no, she needs him and can't live without him, which is romantic and dramatic and all, but it doesn't work that way in the real world. Even though she's in Jake's arms, she's still clinging to Edward, refusing to ever let him go, even though he's already gone. Now, I know I've never had my heart broken, so I have no real experience with this, but I know that when someone doesn't love you anymore and has left and been gone for more than 6 months and promised that they'd never come back, you can't keep holding on, because it will destroy you mentally, especially when you have someone (like she had Jake) who is there for you and loves you and wants to make it all better.

One of the biggest problems I have with these books is how unrealistic they can be when it comes to relationships and happily-ever-afters. I'm not talking about the existence of vampires and werewolves; that's just part of their fantasy universe. However, their existence shouldn't change how things work in the real world. In the entire series, I can only think of two times that Bella and Edward ever argued about anything, both of which ended with Edward caving to what Bella wanted even though he was right. The first time was when Bella wanted to be a vampire, but Edward said no, he wouldn't take her soul away like that. He didn't win that argument, since his whole family and the Volturi disagreed with his point of view. The second time was in the fourth book, when Edward said that he wouldn't sleep with her again until she was a vampire, because he didn't want to hurt her. He went back on this as well, because Bella begged and cried, and he couldn't say no to her when she did that. Now that I think of it, there was one other time that they argued: when she wanted to hang out with Jake in the third book and he hated Jake's guts. That didn't last very long, however, and it all worked itself out without any yelling and fighting. Other than those times, the two of them never tire of each other's company, never get annoyed with each other, and never really disagree on anything! That's just ridiculous! Real life isn't like that; people who love each other still annoy each other and disagree on little things. The love that they shared in these books isn't something that can be found in reality, I am convinced. What can be found, I believe, is the love that she shared with Jacob. Don't kill me here; I'm not on Team Jacob, really! I just think that their relationship was more realistic. He was annoying and sarcastic and funny and couldn't keep his hands to himself and couldn't take a hint that maybe she didn't want him to kiss her! He was also her best friend, and I've been told my whole life to marry my best friend. Now, in a realistic story, she would have gotten over Edward after he left and would have married Jacob and been Bella Black! If that didn't happen, and she did end up with Edward, she and Jake wouldn't have been friends anymore. After she got married, he wouldn't have spoken to her ever again, if this were realistic, and he most certainly wouldn't have fallen in love with her daughter and been her friend again! But that's part of the fantasy-werewolf stuff, so I won't mess with that. The whole unrealistic happy relationship makes girls think that there really are people who are as perfect as Edward, and they don't want to settle for anything less. The problem is, no one is as perfect as him, since he's a fictional character who has no flaws. Real men aren't like that; they're flawed people, sinners like everybody else. I just think that these books give girls unrealistic expectations of men and of life in general.

The last, and probably the biggest, thing about these books that I could not agree with was how Meyer put her Mormon theology into her books, which goes against everything I believe. I know that I'm probably biased, since I'm an awesome Lutheran like Charlie, but still, this is something that made me deem this series as less than great. It doesn't help that I think Mormon boys are cute, since they're so polite and well dressed all the times. This is clearly in all of the books except the first one. It's like the theme of the books is this: If you try hard enough, you can be a good person, and if you are a good enough person, you'll get to live forever with your true love like a god and goddess. That is purely Mormon theology right there! Let me back up. It starts off innocent enough, and if you didn't know that Meyer was Mormon, you might not even realize that she put her theology into her writing. In the second chapter of New Moon, Bella and Carlisle discuss theology to get her mind off her injured arm. Carlisle believes that, because he and his family are good people, he thinks that they will all go to heaven. This is wrong, since being a good person can't earn Heaven, since people can't ever be good enough; people go to Heaven only because Christ died for them and forgave their sins and made them worthy of heaven. Then, in Eclipse, when Edward says that they should wait until they're married, I was very happy. That is, until he gave his reason. He wanted to wait because he wanted her to go to heaven, and he didn't want to jeopardize her eternal life. This is the wrong reason. He truly believes that you have to always do the right thing to go to Heaven. In the partial draft of Midnight Sun, you get to see into Edward's mind, which reveals his obsession with doing the right thing no matter what. Whenever he fails to meet the incredibly high standard he sets for himself, he is overcome with self-loathing (as in the beginning of Breaking Dawn), which would not be bad if it changed how he looks at the world and made him see that he can't be perfect, but it doesn't. He is convinced that vampires cannot go to heaven because they are naturally evil. I liked this, but Bella changes his mind on this subject. Something that really angered me was how, in Midnight Sun, when Bella was a newborn vampire, she had perfect self control. When she and Edward discussed how Jasper started to rethink his worldview because of that, thinking maybe if he tried harder, he could be a good little vampire, you can see how the books do not promote Christianity or Lutheranism. They are all about relying on yourself and not on your Lord and Savior, Christ, to earn heaven and eternal life for you. They seem to say that, if you are a good person, you'll get everything you could ever want in life. That is just completely untrue. Nobody can be good enough, and even Christians who are forgiven and saved still suffer all their lives. Christianity isn't about having a happy life; it's about having something to look forward to when things aren't going right, having hope in something other than yourself when you know you've failed. The Mormon theology was the most aggravating thing about the books.

So you can see that I have way too much time on my hands and spend way too much of that time analyzing books that really aren't that important. I have to say that the books are very captivating, and Meyer is very good at writing emotions, which makes it easy to get swept up in her writing. This worries me greatly, because I know many girls and women who have read these books and seem to believe that this sort of happy ending is somehow possible, when it really isn't in this wicked world. The books lacked good sentence structure and good plots and any real character development. The author constantly compared her books to those of brilliant authors who were much better than her. The characters didn't have any ambitions, goals, or any plans for their futures. The main character, Bella, was a silly little girl who couldn't think rationally or live without a man to love her, yet she was portrayed as an extremely intelligent person. The other main character, Edward, was a Mormon, which makes me sad, because he is what girls who read these books end up looking for. He's also impossibly perfect on the outside, which somehow doesn't upset Bella at all after the first book. So, if you happen to be anything like me and end up obsessing over things like this, I would advise you not to read this series. If you're looking for really good literature and thought that, since these books have been bestsellers for the past few millennia, I must tell you that they are not, in any way, good literature. Honestly, though, I can't say that I don't like these books. I love them as much as I hate them, and I can't help it. I like stories that end with perfect happily-ever-afters and have magic in them and have lots of happy romantic parts in them. Unfortunately, when I read things like this, I become a person that I don't like being, and it's not good for my mental health to focus on fiction so much instead of reality. So, I haven't read any of these books in over two months, and I don't intend to read them for a really long time, if ever. In conclusion, the Twilight books were entertaining, but they were not good literature and I do not recommend them to anyone.

Monday, November 24, 2008

What Happened

Okay, my mom is worried that I have y'all freaking out and she thinks I should just tell y'all, so I will.

This morning, after my English class, a friend of mine from my chorus class came up to me in tears. She told me that Mr. Sasser, the music teacher, had passed away last night. I didn't want to believe her at first. I mean, people don't usually just die all of a sudden, do they? :P
He hadn't been in good health for a long time, but he seemed fine last Friday. I would have thought that he died from his severe diabetes, but it was in fact a heart-attack that killed him.
I still can't believe that he's really gone... He was my favorite teacher. He taught music, which is something I adore. He was soooo laid back, and his classes were what got me through this first semester.
I only knew him for three months, so I wasn't very close to him. Rachel has known him for a couple years now, and I'm worried about her. I'm also really worried for a friend of ours who really loved him. She was in tears all day, and I don't know what I can do for her. All I know to do is hug her and pray... Please keep his friends and family in your prayers.

In Shock...

Please ask, because I really need to talk about it with someone...
I just can't believe what has happened. It seems so unreal...
Please pray for my friends at school and my sister, Rachel. They're doing much worse than I am.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Laptops and Lollipops

To start with, school has been going all right. I finished my second paper this week, and I have my third French test next Wednesday. The new school routine is starting to feel almost normal, though every Monday still feels like it lasts forever.

Rachel came home last weekend for James' birthday. He turned 3 on Sunday. I can't believe he's gotten so big! He's been talking about turning three ever since he turned two! Anyway, Rachel came home, and it was really great to see her again. I feel like I'm closer to her now that she's at college.

Today, after Mom picked me up from school and before we all went to the park, we stopped at Office Depot. Mom got me a laptop!!! She said it's a belated birthday present. 8D So I'm writing this from upstairs in the hallway, since it doesn't get interwebs from my bedroom.

Oh, and there are no lollipops.

Friday, September 12, 2008

A responce to Sarah H's "Not An American"

Yesterday was 9/11. My calendar said it was Patriot Day. I didn't know that we had given the day a name besides 9/11. I have to say that I've never really been all that patriotic. I used to feel bad about it. I mean, I keep hearing that we live in the greatest country in the world. I guess it's true. We are blessed to have freedoms here that most others do not have. When I read "Mara, Daughter of the Nile" by Eloise Jarvis McGraw, read how very patriotic for their country the characters were, I felt terribly guilty that I didn't feel that way about my country. I don't mean that I'm not grateful for all that we have in this country, but I don't have that feeling like I would, without a second thought, die for the ideals that this country stands for. It was only very recently that I realized just why I didn't feel that way. It is because this is not my home country. You are right, I have lived here my whole life, as have my parents and grandparents, but that's not what I mean. You see, I am in this world and a citizen of this country, but I am not of this world and country. I am but a stranger and pilgrim here and Heaven is my home and where my everlasting citizenship truly lies. Being American could never be as important to me as being a baptized child of God and a resident of Heaven. So I don't feel bad anymore for not being patriotic for America.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Busy Busy Busy

I know I haven't posted is a really long time. Rachel moved out on the 17th of last month, and my classes at the community college started the next day. School has been keeping me very busy. I don't even have time to read my library books! I'm taking Expository Writing (ENG 111), American History (HIS 131), French (FRE111/181), Fundamentals of Music (MUS111) and Chorus. I've already written two papers and had three tests. I have another test (maybe two) next week.
I played organ for church for the past two Sundays. I don't have to play again until the 28th! There are piano practice rooms at the college. It's so nice to go into one of those little rooms, after my classes, and shut the door, and just play by myself. It's very calming to me after a long day.
James turns three on the 28th! I can't believe that he's gotten so much older. He's such a big boy.
I'll hopefully post again in the next day or two... but don't count on it :D

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Many many things

First off, I'd like to thank you all for praying for my brother. His appendix hadn't ruptured after all. He came home on Wednesday, and is doing much better. We can tell that he's doing better because he's being silly again. He has to go and see the surgeon again tomorrow, just to make sure everything is getting better like it's supposed to.

I thought I did an okay job, playing organ for the past two Sundays. The organ at Peace is so very small, and you really can't do anything fancy with it, but I love it just the same. I think that, if they did have a big grand pipe organ, I would be much too nervous to play. Dr. Frantz wants me to play organ again on the 31st. The thing is, that's a fifth Sunday, and Peace uses Divine Service 1 (LW) on fifth Sundays. I only know Divine Service 3 (TLH), which is what they use the rest of the time. I have been meaning to learn DS1 for a while now, and I am kind of familiar with it at the organ, so I guess now I have something to motivate me to learn it. I already know This Is The Feast, so that's one canticle down, like 20 to go.

I had piano lessons yesterday. It's the first time I've had piano lessons since before Amen. I'd missed them so much! After we got home, I cleaned off the piano. It was getting me irrationally angry that people put their toys and their drinks on the piano! I mean, it's a musical instrument, not a table! The piano is in the living room, though, so it's to be expected.

Mom, Matthew and I had our dentist appointments this morning. We were 15 minutes late, because Mom had written it on the calendar wrong. They said my teeth were fine. Matt and I had to sit in the waiting room for like 15 minutes, while we waited for Mom to come out. While we were sitting there, we saw a mom with four kids come in. Her two older girls went for their appointments almost right away, and she sat down with her little ones. Her little boy, who was about three years old, wanted to run up and down the long waiting room, and she wanted him to sit and play with his trucks. The whole time, he was just being a squirrely little boy. A little while later, a young woman came in with a little baby. She was so tiny!(the baby, not the woman) She could not have been more than two months old. The little girl, who was about four, walked right up to the baby, as all little girlies do. The girl's mom didn't want her to touch the baby's face, but who can resist touching a soft little baby? I love babies! :D

Later this afternoon, we're going to go and pick blueberries! It will be fun. The little kids are really looking forward to it.

Over the past few days, I've had the urge to clean my room and get rid of all the dust in there. Only yesterday, I realized that it's because I'm so anxious about school starting. I'm terribly worried, and there's nothing I can do about it. So, because I can't to anything about what I want to do something about, I have to do something about something that I can do something about. I'm not sure that anyone will understand that last sentence...